Up for Air

I think I am finally coming up for air after almost three months of life changing news.

The cool fall air comes in my window, bringing a new sense of life. I always have loved this season. It has been my favorite with its changing colors and fresh beginnings. This year as the leaves loosen from their branches, I have watched my hair tumble on the floor. Never would I have imagined this as part of my journey. My now naked head, foreshadows another time of winter white and silent spaces, with bareness and waiting. But we are not there yet as the challenge before me is to remain present to this moment, not running ahead or lagging behind.

Halfway through the first phase of chemo, I celebrate the simple things: a sunny sky, a comfortable bed, clean sheets, food I can enjoy, an encouraging word and time with people I love. There is a long road ahead (three and half more months of chemo) but today I mark being able to think somewhat clearly and type a few words.

Blessings to all of you.

 

Comments

[Liz]

There are tears in my eyes as I read your post. You have given me a good reminder to "be present" during those difficult times. I know that experiencing cancer has caused me to experience Him as my Papa in new ways. I know that it has/will be true for you, too.

With care and prayers.

[Janice]

Oh, such wisdom you share, my friend. I too will continue to hold you in prayer. May our Abba surround you with His tangible presence. May His healing Presence be present to you and yours!

[John LeMay]

Jan,

The poetry of your words shows the wisdom that you hold. My breath was taken away when I red them as I felt that I was being brought to the threshold of a very sacred place. Thank you for sharing this journey and giving me the opportunity to walk through parts of this journey you are on.

[Paul Fromont]

Jan, I only just picked up on this news. Blessings to you too. May you have wonderful moments of knowing yourself enfolded in God's infinite love. Go well. I will light a candle for you this week and take some time just to prayerfully sit with you and your prayers and needs in God's presence.