Tomorrow marks two weeks from my last chemotherapy. I am glad to be done but with its ending comes the uncertainty of what lies ahead. Despite all the side effects, the weekly transfusion brought a sense of comfort and rest that I was actually doing something to combat the cancer within. Now I enter back into life with the hope that recurrence is far in my future or never at all.
It is an odd thing to be faced with one's mortality each day. St. Benedict instructs in his Rule "to keep death daily before one's eyes." I feel as if I have been given a personal tutor to learn this lesson. I can't say I like it too well but I will endeavor to study well and receive this instruction as best as I can. I hope to be eighty someday but will be thankful to make it to sixty. My life is in God's hands. It always has been.
Each morning with the rising of the sun comes a new day. I hope for the best in it. May I have strength for tomorrow.
Ahhh yes . . . thank you for teaching us . . . I remember a time in my life when a different kind of death was before my eyes each day . . . believing that He could and would breathe life into that death took courage and His amazing grace . . . I am grateful for the all that you taught us confirming principles he had been writing on my heart . . . bringing power and light to choose His way each day. Deo Gratias! You remain in my prayers each day!
Posted by: Christi | 10 February 2009 at 03:45 PM
Thank you for teaching me how to be content in all circumstances, because we can trust Christ in everything. May His Spirit bring you peace and healing, Jan.
Posted by: BethB | 09 February 2009 at 06:08 PM
I pray that your "endeavor to study well and receive this instruction as best as I can" will bear much blessed fruit in your life. ~Jaime
Posted by: JaimeG | 08 February 2009 at 11:54 AM